things i’ve learned

“Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them.”  – Paulo Coelho The moment after Kellan died, I had so much regret. I had wasted so much energy and thoughts on things that truly did not matter in my life. So I started writing. …

4 months later

“They say time heals all wounds, but that presumes the source of the grief is finite” ― Cassandra Clare Well, I’m still alive. Sometimes I’m unsure how, but I am. I am still living, breathing, and going through the motions. It’s honestly hard to believe it’s been 4 months. I don’t know how I’ve survived this …

random acts

“And sometimes, against all odds, against all logic, we still hope.”  – Unknown Don’t worry….this post has a happy ending. But to say this past week was rough would be an real understatement. It started out Monday with a call from the hospital billing department. I had asked them for help trying to understand my …

the baby shower

“We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey.” -Kenji Miyazawa The past week has been a rollercoaster. Actually, every week is a rollercoaster. I think my life will probably always be like that…hopefully just smaller climbs and drops as time moves forward? I love real rollercoasters – but life rollercoasters are …

a month at work

Grief is exhausting. -Ciaran Hinds Well, I survived an entire month back at work. It was challenging. Some days I’d drive all the way to a town and then walk around mindlessly. Other days, I’d absolutely slay the day. Honestly, it’s been a good balance. Overall, I am proud of myself. I have to make …